"This is how grace works; it enters the soul, penetrates the heart, saturates the conscience, abides in the memory, affects the affections, gives understanding to the understanding, and imparts real life to the heart, which is the seat of life." Spurgeon

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

The One Who Works

There are times in life when the remembrance of a loved one deceased or a sickness ailing them or the suffering of our children etc.... drive us to a place of sadness and possibly despair. There is a weighty burden on our hearts that remains. For me, this past week brought me to this place.

As I interacted with and observed many little Zambians who where hungry, sick and without hope, I was driven to me knees. I saw the difference 1 day of food and care made as my little ones went from listlessness to smiling alertness.

I struggled at the beginning of the week with the questions to God. .Why is this happening? How can I possibly make a difference? What good is this week going to accomplish when these children go right back to their sad environments? How can I solve this? 

After wrestling a lot I came to see there are a lot of I's in my questions. The Lord reminded me of this verse I have loved again and it gave me perspective.

"Whom have I in heaven but you, and there is nothing I desire besides you, my flesh and my heart may fail....BUT YOU are the strength of my heart, AND my portion forever." -Psalm 73

He is the ONE who is working through us, in us, in them and around us. I am His hands and feet and HE has called me to share the HOPE I have in Christ. He is better than food, water, wellness, sleep, loving parents, any parents, life and breath. I Thank God that, though all but 2 of my kids at camp had never heard of Christ and his saving work for them by His death and resurrection, they All received salvation by Friday. Praise God! Through each individual conversation and prayer time I had with them, I took comfort in knowing that God was caring for them and He will never leave or forsake them, as scripture says. Through the notes I took on each child, through the EOH staff, the head-men of each village and my amazing translator-Edna, the children will be checked on and followed up with. Please pray with me that they God will find a place for those who have the biggest need to be placed in an EOH home!

As I gave each child a hug good-bye I told the Lord I trust him to watch over them and give them peace no matter what their circumstances bring. Each of their faces are imprinted on my mind and heart permanently and I Will do what little Peter asked with Gods help..."Holly- will you pray for me every morning and every night?" To God be the glory for giving these children a new hope that lasts and is powerful enough to sustain and keep them to the end.

"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11

These children's lives continue to weigh on my heart and I am sad for them, but thank you Lord that they are in your hands and that I can trust you with YOUR work you are doing and your burden feels lighter.

How Great a God do we serve? This is the good news for each of us:

"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you." John 14:18

1 comment:

  1. What a beautiful and faith-filled story you are telling.
    Love, Dad/Grampa